Ready to be fascinated by YOUR LIFE (again?)
Why we hold ourselves back from experiencing more joy and what we can do to infuse our lives with passion and love.
I’ve recently asked myself what’s the (current) core intention of my work - no matter if it is cacao ceremonies, training facilitators or teaching about Avalonian mystery tradition.
The overly used phrases come up: to follow your heart, live intuitively, rewild and re-member, root to rise and connect to nature and your innate wisdom within.
The less but soon to be popular ones follow: aligning conscious wants with subconscious needs, reclaiming sovereignty and radical self responsibility.
And then, the much more simple epiphany: joy.
True, heartfelt, change inspiring, get-out-of-bed-to-be-present-with-whatever-life-throws-your-way (including shitty nappies, lovingly called shnappies in our lil fam) kind of joy.
Now, you guys now I’m not one for forced positivity nor avoidance of complexity and shadows. But I’ve gotten so good at the deep inner work that I started to forget to simply play.
It all got a bit too serious.
And suddenly, joy wasn’t easy anymore.
My passion hobbies became my business and spiritual tools lost their novelty excitement.
What stayed though, was devotion.
And devotion had me spiral round to my childhood fantasies about faeries, nymphs and enchanted woods, knightly adventures and powerful sorceresses, mysterious priestesses and a world of harmony.
The last months I felt stuck in the deepest mud of my own psyche.
Wiggling was possible and sometimes I thought I was moving forward and out only to be sucked in deeper.
Can you relate?
Have you felt blocked by yourself lately?
Scrolling mindlessly or consuming information and training in courses when actually not integrating nor changing your day to day?
Feeling powerless or frustrated, bored, stuck?
Let me tell you:
You ALWAYS, always, always - yes even in THIS VERY MOMENT - have the opportunity to take responsibility for your life, your decisions and fullfillment!
It is scary to take up the sword of sovereignty and own your failures, and rightfully so.
Blaming others for your misery is so much easier but won’t get you out of the mud.
This is your time to step on your unique path, act on your intuition and claim your sovereignty!
Sovereignty means you are holding YOURSELF accountable for your actions and not others while being humble enough to admit your flaws, reaching out for help knowing that you have your own back in times of despair!
Are you able to hold yourself accountable?
AND
Are you able to experience intimacy and be vulnerability in front of others?
There is a fine line between sovereignty and avoidant independence.
Did you know that the women in Arthurian legends trace back to nature goddesses of sovereignty?
And that the initiation into sovereignty starts at the shore to the island of Avalon?
If there is one thing that helps us escape the mobile phone trap and move out of the mud, it is story telling and listening. Especially stories that are deeply woven in our collective unconscious, the environment we live in and the landscape we are drawn to.
And I am reaching my hand out to you NOW to join my yearlong mythology to modern magic course THE WORLDS OF AVALON.
I for myself know I owe it to my family to pull myself out of the media consumption and into real life presence and all my senses again and IT CAN BE FUN! BLISSFULL and EXCITING even - and of course magical! And it can include my family.
Because Avalon is all about returning home.
Also, to stir up the mud, which has been lurking at the bottom of the well for too long.
I’ve been sitting with it for a while and it’s becoming more and more clear that my work is so much about returning home to ourselves, our inner connection (which in return strengthens our relationships and belonging in our world) and our sovereign lives.
What has come between us, our desire to live fully in sovereignty, governed by the heart? Fear. And conditioning, but that´s mainly based in fear, too.
WE ALL WANT ONE THING: LOVE
Which comes in form of joy, happiness, magic, wonder, connection, trust.
We all strive for belonging, acceptance and genuine relationships.
What if we already had all that?
Would we relax and finally live the way we want to?
Ready to make mistakes and own them?
Because once we followed our hearts and acted upon our intuition (not necessarily impulses, but that´s a definition for another time), no decision would be wrong anymore. They would become beautiful learning opportunities and ways to clarify who and what is part of our life, and who or what is better placed somewhere far away.
The thing is, there are so many roads that lead to love.
We just seem to struggle to pave our personal one.
Especially in an overstimulated culture of comparison and overwhelm. We are so exhausted that scrolling is the only thing that seems doable, although we know that it distracts us from what we came here to do: to live, fully, embodied, passionate.
Not to say that we can’t distract ourselves ever or indulge and numb out some times. It´s all part of life, going in extremes here and there, to know what equilibrium feels like.
But, if we are honest, would we really want to be in equilibrium ALL the time? Down regulated and nasal breathing 24/7?
A certain amount of stress is crucial to build resilience and capacity to hold, to feel, to grow. We are designed to experience a whole fashion show of emotions, it´s innately human and part of survival. So why not put them on and walk the runway exploring how they all fit?
Yet if we trap ourselves in our mind with constant input and information consuming, we keep ourselves from experiencing life and making mistakes, because we are so busy avoiding them in order to do things right.
The more we know, the more we are afraid to fail and the less likely we will start anything, as perfectionism or imposter kicks in.
We lost the days of yearlong training, apprenticeship and experience to a weekend retreat and one month online courses. In which we can hunt from one to the next yet never integrate. Not making space for all the wisdom we received and allowing it to land, to root, to fruit, to rot.
We have to cultivate patience again.
To be with nature, allow ourselves to winter.
And find a road (not to say it will be your only and last one), that inspires you enough and lights up your fascination, motivation and fills the need for connection or love or joy - so that you
DEDICATE
to it.
Not just for one day or one ceremony or one week, but weave it ongoing throughout your year and its different seasons, allowing you to RETURN from when you stray away.
Find this road. The road that you can anchor to. That calls you back to DEVOTION.
And then devote to it. Again and again.
Not without failing, oh no, you are allowed and encouraged to stumble. As this will only further prove your dedication to it, because the more you stray, the more you can return.
I offer many entry ways to find your own road to joy.
The road signs are:
Magic
Mystery
Meaning
Join me in THE WORLDS OF AVALON and discover a fascinating well of wisdom to water your inner wasteland.
Embark on a Year-Long Quest within THE WORLDS OF AVALON!
Avalon, the mystical realm, is calling you on a transformative journey through the seasons—a journey of history, literature, mythology, and spirituality. As a devoted Priestess of Avalon, I invite you to join me on a quest to illuminate the hidden pathways of this enchanting world.
What Awaits You:
Mystery Tradition: Uncover the ancient wisdom of the Faery Accord—its profound meaning and the ways to restore it in our modern lives.
The Secrets of the Grail Quests: Explore the Grail Mysteries and discover their profound relevance in today's world. These timeless tales hold keys to unlocking the mysteries of your own existence.
King Arthur's Legacy: Journey into the past and unravel the true stories of King Arthur, Guinevere, and the Lady of the Lake. Their narratives are not just tales of old—they are mirrors reflecting the timeless truths that resonate with us today.
Be guided by Morgan Le Fey: Follow the mysterious and powerful queen across the subconscious waters to her Healing Island of Avalon. Witness her shape shift from skilled priestess to challenging sorceress, awakening these archetypes within yourself.
Why Join?
Courage, Inspiration, and Love: Embark on your individual quest to illuminate what has been hidden in the mists and wants to be brought to your awareness. The Worlds of Avalon offer a space for personal growth and self-discovery. On the eternal Isle, you land on the shores of your heart.
Passion, Resonance, Magic: Whether you're drawn to history, literature, mythology, or intentional living, Avalon welcomes all seekers. Find your unique path and devotion within the diverse realms of Avalon. On the Island of Death and Rebirth you are alchemising past pain into present passion which fuels your future fantasies!
Spacious, connected, lived: Immerse yourself in the ever-changing tapestry of the seasons. Each module unfolds a new chapter, weaving together the threads of western indigenous culture in a pace that allows you to integrate it in your daily life with ease. Further study material for those with time will be provided but is not required to complete - as a group we will meet each other where we are at in our unique journeys and benefit from each others learnings, reflections, ideas adn experiences.
Are you ready to answer the call of Avalon? Join THE WORLDS OF AVALON today and let the magic unfold!
We meet live for our first official opening ceremony and vision journey on December 1st, 1pm GMT (London) | 14:00 CET (Berlin). The call will be recorded. Don´t despair if you cant join live, we have a whole year together and plenty of opportunities throughout the seasonal festivals to gather in different timezone friendly calls.
Price will increase from Dec 6th on, so get in whilst it is too good to be true.
Oh I do love your writing Laura. Thank you for sharing ♥️